VisionInBlue

I've done too much pondering recently. Too many decisions to make and too many possibilities. Other people have their lives set out and they know exactly what they want to do with it. I'm just dawdling along, smelling the roses, although that would imply a level on contentment that wouldn't be correct.

The main problem is not knowing enough people who want to do the same things as me. "Shall we go to a gallery?" "Where? In London? Its a long way, and everything is expensive." "Well the gallery is free and we can take a picnic and walk in the park." "Oh, why don't we go down the road and have lunch instead?"

It makes me wonder what happened to all the cultured people. When did lethargy take number one spot in peoples lives over doing something entertaining? I don't mind doing some of these things on my own but I do have a tendency to want to talk to someone about whatever we're looking at/watching/listening to. I just become slightly concerned that I'll be standing in front of a painting going "well I love the way you're riding that horse, very regal looking of you."

I am now blonde-ish. After the haircut I had the urge to change the colour. Normally I go on holiday and it goes blonde naturally but thats not going to happen this year so I decided to resort to Sun-in. It looks quite nice but I can't help but think I'm missing the 'exotic' colours. I used to have purple hair which I loved but the part of me that wanted to go purple was talked out of it by the other part. "You're 27 you should be over things like funny hair colour. People would take you seriously." I loathe that boring part of me!

I always think I'm really easy going about things, I can certainly take a joke, but during my week off there was an "incident" and it really effected me. Partly my fault though, I knew something was going to happen while we were out that was going to get on my nerves and I should have left earlier.

They say sticks and stone may break my bones but words will never hurt me. I'm afraid its just not true. He might as well have hit me with a bit of 2 by 4, it shocked me, especially as he isn't the sort of person who you'd expect that sort of comment to come from. This just goes to reinforce my feelings that men jusy don't get it. And by "it" I mean everything of course!! [Only joking men, don't get tetchy!]

Repercussions, this week I'm afraid are obvious. Got on the Wii Fit and for the first time in months I've put on weight. Not a lot but I knew I had before I got on the board.