VisionInBlue

On Thursday my Grandad died. Not the best way to start a post I know but there's no other way to say it. Though the delights of facebook brought me the new it was quite welcome, I knew the phone would ring and I knew what would be said. It was nice to not have it as such a shock. I wrote on here how I was feeling about the situation and I'm happy to say I wasn't how I expected.

I decided that going to work was the best idea. Why be depressed at home on my own when I could be depressed at work like any other day. Everyone was really good and although I thought I wanted to be on my own I didn't. Work [surprisingly] did cheer me up and yet again I felt like I'd be alright on my own but after speaking to my friend the thought of going home to an empty house was just horrible. This is where I feel so lucky, my two friends dropped what they were doing and came over. We spent the night having a laugh and discussing mindless music and celebrity trivia [which I don't know much about before you ask!]

This is one of my favourite bits of the "human condition", no matter how horrible the situation it brings out the best in people.

Thank you. x

I got in from work and my whole feeling is just kind of 'blah'. Too early for bed, nothing good on the TV and as far as I'm aware no fun to be had. I did manage to make one decision and that is that I positively have to see Transformers 2 at the weekend. Now all I have to do is find someone to go with me.

I've had a lot of time to myself over the last few weeks and its starting to get a bit tedious. Last week I spent most of the time reading and finished a few books. This weekend I spent the time doing puzzles and making chocolates. I've enjoyed the time to some degree, listening to podcasts and cooking, but today particularly I was feeling a bit isolated. I should really have done some work but I couldn't find the enthusiasm for that, I'm having enough trouble finding it for when I'm actually at work. Got a couple of things planned for this week so hopefully that'll perk me up. Especially the trip to the chiropractor, that always make me feel better.

Working on a Friday night... at home... not getting paid... this is the life! I'm having a mental block about possible activities for National Poetry Day. If I haven't thought of anything in half an hour I'm going to bed and thats that!

I'm considering getting rid of my feedjit link. Its really nice to know where people are looking at my page from but I've just been looking at it and my stupid paranoia has taken over. Some of the local ones I know are me when I'm roaming with free wifi. There are however other ones that I know full well aren't me as it shows you the persons operating system... and its not mine.

All this paranoia is dumb on my part as I don't mind that people are reading it, I'd just rather they told me [if I know them of course]. Ahhh well, can't be bothered with stressing myself out about it. Back to reading my book I guess or randomly flicking channels until I find something... decisions decisions!

These are my shoes from the other night, I wore them to work today and felt great.

Sorry to the men who wont see the point in this post but get used to it... shoes are a part of many women's lives.