For about the last two weeks I have really been feeling down. Sleeping badly, not wanting to get up, then going to the other extreme and sleeping too much. Its been getting to me as I know if it keeps going on then I'm just going to sink deeper in to this funk I'm in. But strangely in the last two days I've perked up. Thursday I was surprisingly "chipper" as one colleague said, I think she was quite happy as the day before I looked like I was going to step out in front of a bus. Today was another good day, I had a change of pace at work and was in another department part of the morning and had a good time. I even listened to Radio 4 without wanting to get a duvet and go to sleep. They had Rory McGrath on reading from his new book which I think was called Bearded Tits, that gave me a chuckle.
We go paid today and I got a bonus of £25 for finishing my course... better than a poke in the eye with a sharp stick as they say. Might pop out shopping and treat myself. I can feel the urge to not go coming back and just lay in bed tomorrow and do nothing. I was thinking that I'd put off the shopping until Sunday but then I know tomorrow I'd do the same thing. I must persevere!
No use moping about, I've got to get motivated to lose some weight. We're not holidaying until the end of September so thats a bit of time. I've got my own exercise bike and cross trainer gathering dust in the garage. Its all set up so its not like I've got an excuse not to use them... well I'd have to go out the kitchen door which is always locked and then through the garage door which is always locked... hmm I can see where this train of thought is going. Maybe I'll ease into it, go walking around Croydon tomorrow shopping, do some weight lifting with the bags of goodies and then use the equiptment on Sunday. I'll promise to do it, after all I couldn't lie to you lot! (What'd be the point?!)
